Alone ≠ Pathetic

Being alone doesn't equals to being pathetic.

This is what i summarize recently.
I've been mostly on my own these weeks thanks to my best friends' new bf.(no offense)
Can't say I love being alone at first, i actually felt really pathetic being alone and blame it on others. It is the feeling called "lonely", indeed.
I've been bothered by this problem for a while due to such a dilemma that i have never encounter, not to mention solving it.

What makes it hard is the fact that i don't want to disturb my friend's life, especially she's totally in love with him now. *rolling eyes* In this kinda situation, being on my own seems to be the best, and only choice.
(I def dno't wanna be a light-bulb, it sucks believe me ==)
So, this is why I'm alone recently. To be frankly, I don't like it.

You think these are all my problems? Not yet. Something worse as the consequence of it that since i spent less time with my friend, I started to felt the distance between us. We talked less and seem to have nothing in common. Even though we still go to class together, but after that there's two different worlds.

This is maybe very normal between friends, but it's definitely not something i'm used to.

What happened to us? We were supposed to be talk-everything friends forever, aren't we?
Or is it only my side of thought? How can a guy break our connection so easily, how come?
Maybe I'm the kind of person who is afraid of changes especially those i care a lot.

Still i can't find a way to solve those problems, and i hope time will cure it without harms. I hope.

But one thing I'm sure about is: being alone doesn't means being pathetic.